Origin and us

One day this will all end and I'll be left thinking about how it all started. The origin will seem very bizarre and unnecessary in the whole sequence of events. Merely one innocent looking scenario but something sinister in its very purpose. In its very origin. And how i responded to it will only seem natural for that situation but totally blunderous to the third eye. It will be like why didn't i see the signs? It was so obvious etc. But then god does this. Being a quiet observer. Mischievous in his pursuit. Seemingly innocent like the very event that started the whole sequence. So then maybe by this analogy, God is the beginning and we are the end. Instruments of this bigger sequence. Merely elements. The egoism we 'exhibit' really doesn't make a difference to the 'events'. I mean the events should have a bigger ego. Something like how natural disasters do. No one can beat them. Even their origination for that matter is entirely small and sometimes infinitesimal. Beginnings can also be shared or broken. God in this equation can be referred to as a sadist. Someone who gets pleasure out of pain. Well, not pleasure. He chooses not to intervene. Actually we cannot blame him completely. He can merely raise his hands above his head and be free of all the blame. It's like he's just decided the starting point. It was the man who took the first place. But we can always say that god decided to place him at a point A rather than B. A being probably more favourable than B. Thereby leading to a better sequence of events. Someone once told me of a movie where the life of a person was shown twice with two different starting points and leading to two different ends. Its marvelous. It would of course be an exciting mixture of excitement and frustration to see yourself doing something unknowingly and tempting enough to reach out your hand and change the hands of the clock, a particular word, a certain action, a certain path etc. But unfortunately, we haven't been given that gift.